At the last stage of my Dark Night of the Soul in the Hero’s Journey, I make my final colossal attempt to cross the threshold of adventure and return to this world with gifts to share from my adventures over the past decade. How do I know I am at this threshold? I am ready to die, as I recently acknowledged I had very little – little hope, little money, little health, little desire, little community. Let me back up.
Misery alert — this is about hopelessness, failure and a spiritual enema. It is an honest chronicle of my struggle with healing my soulmate’s body of stage 4C cancer. And life sucks right now…
Week after week I watch and listen to men share their procrastinations, complaints, challenges and broken promises to themselves AND do little that actually changes their situation, their reality. And this time I am angrier than ever. But what I am really angry at is that there is no Universal Tit, and falsely believing in the BIG TIT has prevented me from making big changes in my reality!
Highly successful people are VERY PICKY people in general, and certainly very picky about how they choose! REALLY PICKY. Listen, it is your life. You get to choose most of it, so why are you not choosing most of it? Perhaps you do not know how. OK. Here is a great place to start making your life how you want it to be…
I want this blog to be my personal journey — on FEELING most ALIVE. I’m starting from a place of waking up to how dead I have been. I judge that I should be way more awake and a disbelief, still, of how I could have lived for so long suffering, hurting and oblivious to my own pain. I want this blog to support me to play a role in a grand story — epic, mythic, magnificent!
I really resist claiming my truth of what a hard place that I’ve been in most of my life. I had been telling myself a lot of lies. My biggest lie of all was that I was going to change by walking the same path as I had for decades, even though I had not changed. In accepting my lie and claiming my truth I got it was too hard and painful to continue to lie to myself anymore.
I believe there are two ways to go about engaging in personal change work: one method I call Dredging, survival approach, is to focus attention on wounds, weaknesses and what is wrong. We try to fix things with this approach as if something is wrong. The second method I call Spiriting, a thriving approach, is to focus attention on our dreams, strengths and what is working in our lives. Here we follow our purpose.